When he was 18, having just graduated from high school, Jonathan
Ellerby went on a road trip. Camping one night on a California beach,
he encountered two inebriated prospectors who told him about a remote
area in the high Sierras, a place of stunning beauty and almost
mystical silence. His curiosity piqued, Ellerby went looking.
After a few adventurous days, he found the spot, and it was
everything the prospectors said it would be. Ellerby set up camp, and
as he meditated on a moonlit rock, he had an experience that was truly
mind-blowing. Gradually, almost everything in his perceptual
field—the earth, sky, stars, even his own body—appeared to
melt away. Eventually, all that was left was what seemed to be the
light of God glowing through the moon. He felt that he briefly became
that light, and then it, too, disappeared, leaving him alone in an
ocean of undiluted awareness in which absolutely nothing seemed to
exist.
Ellerby came away from this experience with the feeling that this
great, cosmic emptiness is the foundation of reality, the seedbed for a
mysteriously emerging, dreamlike universe.
Not surprisingly, spirituality became the consuming force of his
life, and after many years of exploration and numerous
consciousness-changing experiences, Ellerby contends that, more than
anything else, direct experience with numinous realms is what awakens
us to our souls’ potential. He also believes that we can increase our
receptivity to these kinds of experiences by committing to an ongoing
spiritual practice.
In Return to the Sacred: Ancient Pathways to Spiritual
Awakening, Ellerby, spiritual program director for Canyon Ranch
Health Resort, examines 12 spiritual paths, distilling a lifetime of
knowledge into an inspiring, insight-laden guide.
For readers who may have trouble visualizing the soul, let alone
knowing how to live from it, Ellerby—who’s studied with spiritual
teachers across the globe—offers a down-to-earth delineation.
“The simplest way to describe the soul,” he says “would be to call
it the ‘true self’: the preferences, talents/gifts, qualities and
characteristics that naturally bring us joy, vitality and peace. When
we live from the soul, we feel empowered, engaged and vibrant. We
access a natural power, an actual force that contributes to health and
happiness.”
The practices that Ellerby believes will help free up that power are
nothing new. They’ve been a part of human experience for millennia, and
range from activities as prevalent as prayer, meditation, music and
service to practices that turn our entire lives, as well as the
inescapable reality of death, into paths of discovery. Writing that
diversity is a natural part of spirituality, Ellerby says that these
practices “reflect a common spectrum of spiritual styles” and urges
readers to choose a path that resonates with them.
Ellerby has divided the practices into four categories—body,
mind, heart and soul—reflecting basic personality orientations.
All of them, he says, have the same ultimate purpose: to distract the
ego and help us set aside familiar ways of seeing the world.
Ellerby’s reflections on these paths glitter with little epiphanies,
but his accounts of actual experiences are so vivid that some readers
may feel vicariously empowered. He writes about studying yoga in India;
a Lakota healing ceremony; his apprenticeship on a turkey farm with a
Gurdjieff-like teacher who showed him how to let go of attachments; a
raucous, spirit-calling ceremony in South Africa; a magnetic Hawaiian
who taught him how to pray from the heart; and a grueling, four-day
vision quest during which, just as he entered a state of total
collapse, his ego seemed to crumble, and he experienced a revitalizing
realization.
“Then like lightning,” he writes, “something struck me. … I can’t do this—’I’ am the barrier! As long as I think that I’m
alone in this world, that I’m the one who makes things possible, I’ll
always suffer. The very thought that there’s a ‘me’ who’s separate from
God and Nature is a lie, and that is what’s torturing me. I wasn’t
alone!”
Ellerby writes with the exuberance of a man who has been on an
extraordinary journey, and can’t rest until he’s told everyone about
it.
“Those who heed the call,” he asserts, “will cross an invisible line
on life’s road and realize that there’s no going back to a life of
unconscious choice and reaction. We’re awake and hungry for the light
of day and can’t wait to travel beyond what we already know. One day,
the fear of staying stuck overcomes the fear of change.”
This article appears in Jul 9-15, 2009.